About ten days ago I let myself give up for a bit. The world turned upside down, everything closed down, and things got strange. I consciously allowed myself to wallow for a while. I knew I’d eventually pull myself out of my funk because I’m a positive and resiliant person by nature. But I needed some time to process, to regroup and adapt.
Mostly I stress-cleaned, slept excessively, watched a lot of streamed movies and TV, and crocheted things. Made jokes to stay sane. Texted people. A lot of texting. As an introvert, excessive texting almost makes up for real human contact. Almost.
Today I started reclaiming my normal. I woke up and actually felt okay, ready to plan things and figure out what my new normal will be. The first thing I did was to do a Turbo Jam video. The 15 minute Burn (very short but very sweaty). Then I showered, and took care of my face and combed my hair. Like a human. Did some stuff around the house, had a day. It felt good. It felt normal, the new normal.
I hope I feel the desire to do it again tomorrow. I know not every day will feel right or normal, but I’m ready to find my new normal, my new even keel.
Maybe tomorrow I’ll do the 20 Minute Workout instead of the 15 minute Burn. We’ll see.